Special for Along

Entry ni telah berkepuk lama dalam draft, buat masa along exam lagi, tapi tadi telefon my lovely mother, she said "along dah abis exam dah semalam, dia dah nak balik dah ni". walau apa-pun nak post juga entry ni.. Along, hope you enjoy this entry..
Salam..
Dear My lovely sis,

I don't know how to suppress my feeling and how to support you while you are facing Exam.
I'm not a good writer to write a beautiful words/letter. I'm always troubling you during my life. I also haven't even say once that I love you with my own voice, that's not because I didn't love you, but I really shy to express it.. Maybe my action doesn't ever show that I am a good sister to you..

During our father death, I was in Hadith's Class at Maahad Johor. While, along at MARSAH (beside Maahad Johor). You asked your friend to tell me about the news. I know, you doesn't have encouragement to tell me about it. Then, when i had finished packed my beg, while waiting Pok Su (our youngest uncle from mom's family) to bring we back to our home in Muar, I cried, then you told me :

"Dont cry, Mom is in more hard situation to face all this thing alone. You, me and our brothers are at boarding school, no one beside mom now, we must be tough to face this, dont cry infront of mom, that will make her more miserable. Be a 'solehah' daughter after this, that can bring our parent to heaven." 

I saw your swollen eyes, but you didn't cry in front of us, especially mom..
I know, after  our father passed away, your burden are more tougher than before. You also helped me alot to settle my study in Egypt. I feel very awry that i leave home, and you handle and take care our family alone.
Your study always success, even in the UM, you always got the best result. Unfortunately, the opposite occur to me, maybe you are disappointed to me, but you not lure it out, but you give me encouragement to try again and success in study. I dont know how to suppress my feeling, but I truly love you, you're the best sister for me. Maybe I not a good sister for you, sorry I'm not being the best sister that you must have. Wish you luck in the exam, I always pray for your success from here..
May Allah's blessing always upon on you...

Your 'nakalish' Sister,
Nur Zakiah Binti Md. Sallehuddin

*** I removed the my picture in this post due to privacy..